TODAY, Me, HomeLessCrisis is a "Friend In Need"

Today, 2/28/2010 is NOT a good day. Today, My 55 year old Sister lays in a hospital in Minnesota on a ventilator and a bypass machine to keep her heart beating. This morning sometime, they will be removing those machines to see if they can get her heart to beat on its own. Yes, she has had heart trouble for a long time, but this recent episode was sudden and unexpected to all of us.

So, i wait for the call. Will she come out of it? Or will it be the call nobody likes to get?

Yes, it will be whatever God's will is. I realize this.

However, Today as i write this is am angry at a number of things. Mostly my inability, due to lack of money to go be at her side to let her know I am there.

I have done this work of helping others for the last 24 years and never taken or requested any wages for doing so. To this day we try to raise money to help others. Thursday we paid $635 worth of donated money to help someone pay their past due rent bill in order to help them move towards getting better assistance for their current housing and we will be paying more soon. Nothing ever goes to us as a "wage" to cover what we need. We have needs also. We are people too. The money currently in our Straight Ahead Outreach (Taking Back Your Life) Inc. bank account is funds donated for "specific" reasons and it is money we cannot touch for ourselves, ethically or morally as we have given our word as to what those funds will be used for. Not for our personal needs.

For 22 of the last 24 years of doing this work we have funded everything we do out of our own pockets. For the last two years 90% of what we do has been funded by donors, two in particular. Today, personally i do not have a dime in the bank any longer as i have not had a regular job now in over one year. But yet, again, i continue to help others. Yes, it is my calling.

However, i am still a person. One with feelings. Should i have saved better in my life for myself instead of giving everything i had to others? Maybe. But then i would have not made the differences i have made in others.

So, i sit here Today beating myself up, ok, i guess feeling sorry for myself maybe and very very mad at myself for not having the money in the bank (that is mine that is) to jump on a plane , rent a car and stay in a motel to go be by my sisters side.

Is it my fault? Yes. Of course it is. BUT, again, i am human. It makes me frustrated and hurts to the very core of my soul.

Will i get through it? Yes. Unscathed? No.

So, TODAY, Me, HomeLessCrisis is a "Friend In Need."


So, here is what i am going to do. If you want to help, you may click on the Donate button here on the Blog page. Please leave a note when you submit your donation and say "For STA Wages" and we will send you a receipt showing that. If for some reason PayPal does not give you the window to leave a note, then please email me and let me know at: straightaheadlwg@gmail.com
If, she does not pull through before i am able to get there, then we will return your donated funds to you unless you specifically tell us to keep them.

Thank you for taking the time to come here today.

Take care of yourselves,

HomeLessCrisis/Lance Greene
Website: www.homelesscrisis.wordpress.com
Cell: 865-964-1461